Tethered or Untethered...?
It has been a long time since I visited my writing journal...my blog. And yes, I have missed it. But!, life gets in the way: she (?) calls for, and wants - demands? - to be lived. Consequences are paid when one does not. Jumping headfirst into life feels like one is running all the time, not "present", acting ( re-acting, really ) on what is going on, or denying what is going on...split in two or more pieces. One - intends to and says that one - accepts life as is, and follows the " push-and-shove's" that come one's way, while deep down rebelling against the continual " being-pushed-and-shoved ". Doormat, conformist experience...maybe? Yes, one can get absorbed in "living life fully" and also inadvertently fall into the trap of living "mindlessly". Just going on the ' float ', bumping into each rock along the rapids...indifferent, content and, surprise!, somewhat ugh!...miserable? Wishing things would be different...