My experiences, thoughts and their expression: mi vida

More about the day in this article Wow! on March 19th., I celebrated my "name saint day" - St. Joseph's Day: San José . Several José's around, including a special one - José Javier! Today is the 21st. of March. The b-day of Martín Lohr - my brother. Wonder where he is...Mayaguez, PR, I am told. He's "out of it", as the phrase goes. Maybe homeless; penniless? But repeating the cycle of getting rescued by people he charms, with his warm personality, stories, and his spirit. Wow! What a path your soul chose to go thru this lifetime, Martín. Was it pain? Or, denial? Reality too hard?...given something that must be very scary, very painful? What? But, don't we all do the same? Maybe to a lesser degree, but we do it. We hide our vulnerability buttons: our shame?, our id - who we are, our scary convictions, our...?(space left for fill in). So - Japi Berzdei, Bro ! Martín Lohr ! How much pain is associated with it! Estrangement...distance...s...

"By sufficiency, I don't mean a quantity of anything. ... It isn't a measure of barely enough or more than enough, Sufficiency isn't an amount at all. It is an experience, a context we generate, a declaration, a knowing that there is enough, and that we are enough. ... It is a consciousness, an attention, an intentional choosing of the way we think about our circumstances." (Ref: Lynne Twist, The Soul of Money ). Am I enough?  Am I hiding, shying away, or clutching, seeking, thirsting, running, avoiding, skipping, grasping, grappling, vacuuming, needing...When I am flooded with fear and scarcity, do I try to call forward joy and 'sufficiency' ( there's that word again! ) by acknowledging the fear, transfoming it into gratitude...and generating the context and the sensations of welcoming, or safety, or okness, 'enoughness', pleseantness, ...? Something to 'munch' about. Ref: from the book The Gifts of Imperfection , Brené Brown...